13 October 2009

Interviews and Life

I've only ever had a handful of interviews, but after I had the first couple of them I stopped being afraid. I had originally thought that an interview was something to be feared, and I was worrying over how I should act. Having never experienced them before, I think I was only afraid because it was another form of new, untraversed territory.

Right now, I'm either suffering from my condition where I can become increasingly calmer the closer a situation I'm looking forward to approaches, or I've simply become comfortable with interviews.  I would like to think it's the latter, as I've realized the important notes of the game.  No, an interview isn't about pretending to be a God in your profession.  No, an interview isn't about lying about yourself.  An interview is about the honest version of you.  After all, you would be working with these people, so your natural personality has to click as well as how much you know.

One of my personality quirks in life has been an obsession with being a people pleaser.  I have been naturally embarrassed by the thought of not fitting in.  Thus, my personality didn't have any true qualities.  Sure, there was something hidden underneath, but even I wouldn't let it out.  What came from was an aversion to anything debatable -- no true opinions on any subject that mattered.  Maybe this was another reason I feared interviews -- how can I conform to the ideas of someone when I will be meeting them for the first time during the interview?

I wasn't being dishonest with everyone.  I was being dishonest with myself.  There is the telling that you can't please everyone, but I didn't want to listen, so I attempted to do just that.  It might yet prove difficult, but I think it's time I tried to let out the real personality and become a real person.

Onward to an interview. Without fear.